Friday, 15 March 2013

Inspired? Or Not!

Hello folks,

How art thou? Good I hope.

Lately I've been fee-h-eeling so unispired. In all areas. And I don't know how to get my mojo back mehn. It's soooo h-annoying!

Last night I couldn't sleep. Well, I went to bed about 10pm and was wide awake by 2:30 am. Thinking - "what shall I do with this my life?". I just don't know. I'm not where I want to be in life, but so what? Not everyone is. Ki ni big deal? Ok, I get a little bit lonely at times, but who doesn't? So again, what's the big deal? Career-wise I'm not even close to where I want to be. Not even close. Smh.

I tried to take stock of what I do enjoy doing and came up empty. I've recently (when I say recently, I mean as of last summer) taken up sewing as a hobby. I've made a few things, adjusted a couple of things and re-modified a few things. I have so many ideas, but find myself stuck. Unmotivated and uninspired to really get stuck into it.

My home needs redecorating. I did the majority of the refurbishment a few years ago and all that was left to do was the painting. Again, this has been left undone for so long it's now beyond a joke.

I tossed and turned for a few hours with these thoughts before forcing myself to sleep through the frustration. I know my God is not a God of confusion and frustration!!! I've prayed to God about it, but still I can't hear His answer. What's wrong with my ears? Or is it my heart? I just don't know.

I feel so unfocused! Grrrrrr! And I don't know where to begin to put things right. I can't even think straight about the things I do like. Anything that comes to mind I question "but why?" and "do I really like that? Or do I just think I like that?". 

Feeling like this is sooooo frustrating.

Anyone know what I'm talking about? Ever felt like this? If so, how did you overcome this feeliing? Help!

OR maybe it's this awful weather we're having here right now in March?! Lol.

Just trying to be inspired!

Until next time.